I am beginning to question my major. I am studying to be a clinical psychologist. I've always had doubts in myself as to whether or not I will actually be able to be as good as the professionals, but now the doubts are becoming more prominent.
Giving advice is an incredible passion of mine. I encourage my friends to open up to me if they ever need to, and even go out of my way to help others I don't even know on here. I like the idea of people being okay and will help in any way possible. Although I sure as hell need some advice sometimes, I feel others problems take more priority than mine.
Now though, I'm beginning to think that maybe I'm not cut out to do what I've been doing my whole life. I feel that my dream to be a successful psychologist will never happen.
I've read several books about psychology and te psychological disorders I plan to focus on in my career, but as I keep reading this books my hopes and dreams keep diminishing. I'm currently reading a book about a woman who suffered from Borderline Personality Disorder, and the therapist in the book is astonishing. His way with words and how he treats the patient is how I want to be. Of course there are a couple things in his practice that I don't agree on, I still believe he's absolutely incredible.
This is not the only book that I've felt this way about. I even get these feelings when I watch movies dealing with this kind of stuff. I'm just becoming extremely discouraged and don't know what to do. I'm completely lost and in need of advice.
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I may look happy, but honestly dear, the only way I'll really smile is if you cut me ear to ear.
One will make it better, one will make it stop.
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