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Originally Posted by skysblue
Soup, you have some wise words here. I think I have such deep distrust that anyone could ever really care about me that after trusting T so much and seeing 'evidence' that her caring was not real, hits me in a deep deep vulnerable place. My instinct is to wail and cry and kick and scream and run to the corner to hide and never be seen again. I mean, why trust again? In my mind it's obvious she doesn't really care because SHE FORGOT.
I'm seeing the dysfunction in this attitude but I'm having a hard time aligning my feelings with my rational mind.
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I am due to see my T this evening and feel the same - first he can't really care, because no-one really does. Yes sometimes he may seem to "get me" and I start to believe, then he shows his "true beliefs" yes it was there all the time, just hidden behind a facade of pretending to care - stupid of me to think things could ever be different
. SD