As you said in your first post, these feelings of abandonment and fear, etc. come from a child part of you. You know with the adult you that people forget, particularly people who are juggling information from many different people, she's human like the rest of us, like yourself. You are an adult. You will have to choose to listen to the adult you here. This doesn't seem like something irreversible at all. You are not feeling well, you are about to have a bit of a separation from therapy due to vacation if I read that right. It seems like your "child" is in a very unproductive, self-protective mode. When my children aren't thinking clearly, I have to sit them down and help them see the reality of the situation. Sit down with your child and reassure her that all is well. Your T is still the same person. Everything else is just perception.