Skyblue, I'm sorry you have experienced this. It is really painful.

I have reacted in a similar way to different T's who have forgotten something I've told them. I agree with what everyone else is saying about the past issues impacting on the present. It is natural that you feel abandoned but it certainly doesn't mean you have been. T is still there for you and cares for you. She just made a mistake.

I hope you can go back and explore your emotions around this. I really think it would be so important if you can.

I want to thank you for this thread because I am experiencing a rupture with my own T which is very different in subject matter yet my emotions are exactly the same as yours. My T seemed deliberately hurtful but I am holding onto the fact it MIGHT be a complete disconnect and am prepared to go back and see. But the feeling that she has changed and everything is unsafe is very strong for me too.

I hope you and T can work this out.