You know I had a conversation with T a coupke of sessions back about how of late I seem to be talking all of the time, unable to let there just be silence. I told T how my hubby recently turned to me and said "for F++k sake, aint u spoke to anyone this week" lmao!

T said something like my talking constantly is perhaps stop me self reflecting. As she said that, I had a fear. There is who I tell myself I am, and then there's the "who I really am" and I think I am getting closer to this me that I haven't really looked at and its increasing my negative behaviours. its hard to take in that I am not who I like to think I am.

Oh I don't say who I really am is horrid, but sometimes from a distance a shadow is very scary until we get closer and see the shadow for what it is.

Who am I really *insert twilight theme* lol