.....how bout' that!?

I know there are things inside me I don't deal with...
I am not strong enough!!

I never was...

it's not my fault....I manage lots of stuff but I fall apart in my silence

I don't know how to talk about how sad I am....so I move on

and find somewhere else this apathy seems to work

and also I consume alcohol to make it all better

and it works for a bit...

is everything my fault?....

surely not......parts of me don't work out like I want them to....

it's best I just let them do their thing with me and then maybe I will understand them better