Oh no! this life just sucks doesnt it sometimes, i think everyone in this part of the web feels like that sometimes , ok maybe most of us feel like that all the time. but you have to think about what is important and who would miss you if you actually did it. your boyfriend for one and im pretty sure your friends would be heart broken! as forest gump says LIFE IS LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES! and as sure to hell is to swearing it is. people chew you up and spit you out and the best thing to do , is wipe of the spit and look at life. Everyday i wake up and plan on doing something good, may it be something small from picking up rubbish (just one piece) of the street and putting it in the bin to making dinner for my friends. And even when there are day when i just dont want to move my fat *** out of bed (people say im not fat but looking in the mirror this morning i need to loose a little weight) that motervates me. You need to find some thing that moves you! i dont think anyone else has been helpful by saying "i'm sorry" to you that isnt going to help matters, im telling you this is how i get threw my day! I quickly put that evil depressed side of me in the box in my head and find something fun to do. BAKE A CAKE go or for a walk. life is for living and not for wishing away! also the best way to beat the blues, is look in a mirror and say out loud GRRRRRRIN! you will feel a twirp but its a good! and you will laugh my dear and if some one catches you doing it. they will laugh too!