Not to scare you, but this is identicle to what I went through...

Around 15 I loved pot, smoked day and night, around age 19 I experienced my very first real panic attack, not anxiety, panic attack, was sent to the ER, swearing I was having a heart attack.

I stopped smoking after that because after that, I would notice I couldn't smoke and leave home, and even felt nervous at home, if I left and went to the store ide have such thoughts as "why are these people staring at me, are they talking about me?" Etc... It all started to contribute to a hightened anxiety I could no longer tolerate.

I had already been seeing a DR for depression, but after each time of smoking, it got worse and worse, I had to quit almost immediately. Yes, marijuana can induce panic, its a fact, it can almost provoke other mental illnesses, yes, but I cannot tell you what you do or don't have.

I am now 26, after I stopped smoking pot, I started abusing pills and alcohol for years.

Long story short, my anxiety has moved to the worst possible place it could be, Agoraphobia(fear of leaving home), I absolutely cannot leave home without first taking xanax and valium, I will get intense panic and swear I'm dying. I can no longer drive for fear of passing out while driving, everything has gotten to be so irrational in my mind, I no longer have control.

If you have the money for it, or insurance, please see a psych doctor, prevent your anxiety from getting worse. I feel insane almost 24/7 and panic even at home but I have no been diagnosed with schizophrenia, rather Panic Disorder, and Agoraphobia, among Clinical Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I am also, like you, a hypochobdriac, when I start to feel bad or a certain symptom, I immediately look it up online and find the worst scenario in everything I read.

I can relate very much. I'm no DR, I can't tell you what you do have, but I CAN say you have depression and an anxiety disorder. When those racing thoughts and chest pain turn into you swearing you are dying, that's called a panic attack, there's a difference between panic attacks and panic disorder, with me, I have panic disorder, the fear of having another panic attack sends me straight into a panic attack, its a lose lose situation for me, and has forced me into isolation, dont let this happen.

I use to love music, I use to listen to it to feel better, and the feelings that you are experiencing of being numb to it now, or not enjoying things anymore describes yet another first sign of depression/anxiety.

I suggest finding help, and don't be convinced you have schizophrenia, its unlikely. Anxiety disorders can be severe, and can get really bad, I can't even leave home, imagine that? I'm 26 years old wasting away because I cannot leave my own house.

The marijuana may have triggered your anxiety, your situation is so very similar to mine, it makes me wonder.

PM me if you have any questions, or simply post here.

Take care,

-Kevin D.

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