I asked for the meeting. I am scared too death.

I have all my notes prepared and am ready to stand up, speak up and hopefully come to a resolution re: internal / hr matters that are a win/win for everyone.

I am terrified, too. I've been waiting for over 24 hours for them to carve out some time for me.

I have to remember to speak slowly (but firmly), use my notes (if I have to, so I can stay on track) and finally ask for their suggestions / assistance / input.

I've been here for almost a year and the trouble started a couple months ago that is loaded with triggers (pain, hurt, tears in private, loss of sleep, anger, avoidance, irritibility, feelings of helplessness and finally SI )

I don't want to feel this way anymore. Or for this type of thing to continue to happen to me where I feel so insignificant I start SI.

Meh.