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Originally Posted by Mindinpieces
Yet at same time she said I wasn’t ready for work just yet. Even though I said I was, but that was lie to tell truth. I guess I need to own up and admit I need more help but don’t know what’s going to happen now. I have to wait till next week to say if I am ready or not ready. I am not ready and that’s the truth. I can’t even bring myself to volunteer at moment I keep leaving it off and don’t feel able to contribute to that. But might try phoning volunteer place in morning. Although thinking of that makes my heart want to jump out. So I really am not ready just yet.
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When I was in a situation like yours I ultimately had to really give myself a break and take little steps for awhile, not push myself with the out-in-the-world stuff much. I had to work on not telling myself I was bad and worthless because I was unable to work outside the home.
I did have to push myself with the getting out for walks and occasional restaurant & coffee house excursions.
Otherwise I had to focus on getting stable and safe. Things that helped me feel cozy and comfortable helped. I still have to watch that I don't fall into negative self-talk and I'm not always comfortable in the world, but I've come a long way.
I think we have to learn how to be good friends with ourselves. Wishing you well on your journey.
(For Rose: You aren't a bad influence at all, nothing wrong with taking meds, I've had to also)