Thank for the warm welcome...
I guess this may be the wrong forum for me though, considering even though I was abused...I'm not dealing necessarily with that so much as with the problems I have now...I do feel like what I'm deal with is directly related to those things, especially the fact that I'm having to relive and go through my experiences again...I'm trying to get back into college. I am transferring to a local community college from an online school after losing my job...I have already been to a local tech school and the online school who accepted my independent status, but this school wants documents I cannot provide. Throughout my life the abuse I experienced has been denied...By professionals, by family, pretty much everyone, even though my mother would beat me 'till I bruised or bleed. It just feels like another form of denial. Even though I lived in a shelter for the last few years I was a minor...There ****ing schools don't give a **** about me. They just want me to give them as much money as I possibly can...XP
On top of this I am super depressed, hopeless, gaining a lot of weight since I became unemployed...I normally just do it anymore, I persevere, but I have no faith things will ever get better. I put my all into my last job and they treated me like garbage, I no longer even like my chosen career path, like I once did....I just can't look forward anymore...I keep tell myself I give up. I don't have the resources to get better emotionally, and I'm just not the right person to live in a world like this...