I am sorry to hear what you are going through. Since you are 18, will you soon be out on your own? There are women in distress groups that will help you get out of the situation and help you make plans for the future... if you cannot do this on your own.

Some ppl never grow up. There are usually some of them we call relatives... it hurts more because the moral statute "requires" your loved ones to help you not hurt you.\

Obviously you have learned behavior in your efforts to survive this situation. A good therapist to help you RE learn proper responses to such ppl and abuse should be high on your list of taking care of you!

It isn't hopeless right now, even though I know you feel that way... be what you can till you come up for air, then take care of yourself!

NO ONE DESERVES to be abused. Those are the "looters" intentions for their victims... they make us think we did something wrong.

be safe.

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