I don't trust other's and I am now questioning my own self. I think fear is one of my big things too, the what if's I get so hung up on. I am so afraid of doing anything right now for fear I will make the wrong choice. I don't understand why I have gotten so afraid? I know I need to tough n up. How do I get passed my emotions being so raw? I now understand why I used and drank it was for the false courage because of the fear of living. How does one over come that fear?