Try to get help
And shyness sucks, i know how hard it is to try and overcome it but afterwards you feel so much better
And sorry to hear about your bf. since it was your first one youll probably get over it and find another one. But if uou feel you should or want to go over to hin or txt him and speak about it- hear wat he has to say. Its always so much easier and simpler to have everything out in the open.
Gluck