*Might trigger for slight rage on my part*

I just dont know where to turn, I know of no other DID's in my daily life...and I feel like I cant post.

I have been losing time like theres no tomorrow....and I end up in therapy and my therapist is talking and then suddenly its over...and I know NOTHING of what happened in therapy...
then next thing I know...Im lost..Just lost in my head...dont know what NOTHING MAKES SENSE.

and I cant tell ANYONE. I tell my therapist and they nod their head and I feel like I might as well just throw myself in a river..

I just

want to explode.
I JUST WANT TO EXPLODE!

I hate that everybody else is just so able to do this and that...and I barely know when im going to sleep or Im walking into a new moment every five seconds...and Im seemingly nowhere.



WHY CANT THERAPISTS UNDERSTAND...NODDING YOUR HEAD ISNT ENOUGH.