Thank you everyone. Since this post it would seem my mind has hidden everything away again. It is so strange to me though.. it is very rare I let these kind of emotions and memories overcome me. But once in a while.. maybe a few times a year or a little more.. all of the sudden everything just HITS me and I can't handle it. This last time thinking about it made me so sick to my stomach I started gagging over the toilet. I don't understand my own mind, but now everything is fine. Normal. I even put therapy on hold for a few weeks since there is nothing bothering me right now, nothing to talk about. I don't know.. I just don't get it.