Yes, reacting that way is instinctual to me, but is often very destructive and leaves me feeling like a shell. Sometimes I feel like the guy from what about bob?, ha. One day I suppose.

Maybe we can set up some magic language to better ask each other for help. hrmmm..... I think this might help us both perhaps.

Lets not talk about the boat capsizing (despite the fact that it's ALL we think about most of the time probably). DBT is ok, its just so hard to actually put the lessons I learn to real practical use, because when I get caught up in an 'emotional storm' I can never see past the clouds to anything reasonable. Its hard to even try or care at the point im at right now. I am still hangin in there though, hoping that one day I will have an epiphany while in group. More than anything it gives me some sort of structure and expectation to live up to, which helps me to some extent. The 'exercises are all too easy to resist, all the 'homework' and such. Life just isn't the same on the outside as it is within the therapy setting where it all seems so easy to do these things. I'd say give it a try though. It can't hurt, which is why I'm there.

I will try and keep in touch. I'm being unwittingly dragged to the beach this week by my mother, who is terrified of leaving me to my own devices for another week given the events of last week. So I am stuck with her :: But I will check here often, and will be thinking of you as always You keep in touch (and safe) too doll!

*hugs*

Kelly