I really relate to how you're feeling and I think I would also be struggling with it, if it was me. I've had huge trouble with feeling forgotten in the past and there have been a few occasions when T has forgotten me, or I've though that she had. The time that this all makes me think of was one of the hardest times for me. I was seeing a second T and while my current T was away for a week I was having my final appointment with T2. I told my T how badly I'd feel about this, I can't even put it into words now. I feel like an idiot for saying it, but I think it was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I was a complete mess during the week when I knew it was approaching. T said she'd text me while she was away. I'd never get in touch with her first while she was on holiday, that wasn't an option, but she said she'd get in touch...and that was like a small bit of hope to hold onto. The only bit of hope I had to hold onto. She didn't contact me, my last appointment with T2 was postponed anyway, but that didn't matter. During that awful week, when T said she'd get in touch, she didn't. It was so hard for me. The thing that helped was talking to T about it once she was back. She even told me that she had thought of me, I think. She didn't have cell phone coverage where she was staying, though she'd also forgotten that she'd said she would get in touch. She was really apologetic and seemed upset with herself. I do feel okay about it now, I think. It's so hard to feel forgotten. It makes me worry about all sorts of things (how T is more important to me than I am to her) and it's makes me feel so sad. I'm sorry you're going through something so difficult. I totally get why it is difficult.