I've never seen that 'feeling' put into words. Body memories....exactly. How on earth do we explain that to some one who never had 'em!??

My first experience with PTSD was my x husb, who had Viet Nam/combat PTSD, not to mention being brutalized by a SOB father. It was about 1981, PTSD was just being mentioned publicly. I contacted vet groups, all of it trying to get him some help ( never thinking I was going thru the same thing 'cause I'd never been in a war!) He refused help and died two years ago from it all and his self abuse.

Anyway, I was one of his triggers. When my son was born (april, 1976) an x boyfriend turned up at the hospital when they were prepping me for delivery and my husb ran into him and ASSUMED the guy was there because I was delivering HIS child...NOT! He was there because he had gotten someone else pregnant and she was delivering the SAME day. As I continued in labor for hours, no one could find my husband, he went to the nearest bar and got drunk. Every HAPPY day of my life always turned out to be a nightmare, always! He wouldn't even come to the hospital to see me or our child. He put me thru HELL for the next three years about our son not being his, blah, blah...He abused drugs, he cheated, he hit me, insulted me, all of it. He couldn't even tell me why he was so angry with me. It finally came out and he realized he was wrong BUT the 'feeling' never went away. Every time he looked at me, he was angry, sad, felt betrayed. He said he knew better, but he just couldn't stop that 'feeling'. Needless to say, our family was destroyed and I have never gotten over the trauma of that day either. As the years went on, I forgave him, and with every year he hated me more.

Body Memories. Yes, indeed.
The SOB's are deadly!