Thank you. Yes, I do wish life and parenting came with manuals. I've read the books but real life application is very different. I just want to be a good mother...and don't feel I have a solid background that taught me the "right" set of skills.
I can only work with what I have and try to improve on the other areas as I see them.
I was angry at the doc for not listening to me and brushing away my concerns...I feel they were valid. Regardless, speech therapy certainly can't hurt.
I am angry at myself for not being a better mother...i really do try. I have done the very best I can in the only ways I know how. It's been a very rough year and a half so my little one hasn't had the "happy" upbriging he deserves. ..but I try. He is a happy child so that must mean something.
I am so angry at his father for putting us through this living hell.
..and most importantly I am angry at my mother. She will not seek psychiatric help, and I'm not sure how much longer I can continue this unhealthy relationship. Regardless, life continues. So I will try. I just can't do it all at once. Something needs to give.
I really like the idea of holding him when he is tired and ready for bed...I usually do this while reading to him. I've tried to establish a consistant routine but I think it's time to change it up a little. Maybe I just need to do this when he is sleepy and doesn't have so much energy in him.
Thank you.
Cotton