The Elite pack is a special thing with a web site and maps for a long time (or forever,) and you can register your clan or something. I don't really know much about it because he doesn't share with me about things he's doing like he used to. Like for example, he used to play Halo and MLG and we went to an event and everything. And I was never 'involved' like I don't play Halo, and i wasn't on forums, and I didn't used to know he's team mates or care if there were girls on his team. But I still felt like I was part of the whole thing because he would share with me and his desk was in the main house and he always would proudly show me his videos and things like that. I could tell you all about Halo or MLG or Bungie. CoD community is way different than the Halo one and he's different now, too... but he doesn't even realize he's different.

I know he's an addict, i wrote him a letter and read it to him and he tore it up. He didn't talk to me for two days except to tell me I'm a horrible person and that spouses support each other. He's been making comments now that he's "and addict" in a sarcastic way. Like "I can't talk right now, I'm a game addict and can't think about anythign else but my game." Also he sarcastically teases me about the girls I'm jealous of.

Also I did the whole "don't clean the house or anything" bit from September until the baby was born. Because I was broken. I also have bipolar, and I couldn't take it I was so depressed. I couldn't do anything after work but sit at my desk at home and cry and obsess. I didn't watch my shows, I could play games, I couldn't even do anything for the baby coming. Anyway, the house was a nightmare. When the baby came he cleaned up. But it took four months, and only then because the baby came.

I also have come to realize I'm really broken and I don't know what to do. My heart is completely smashed. I've started having the racing thoughts when I go to bed again. I just feel like I'm floating in a fog.