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Originally Posted by TrinityDancer
we were wondering if anyone else has these fears about having a good day or even more? like we dont deserve it and always looking over our shoulders waiting for the other shoe to drop or maybe worse? yesterday was spent is such severe flooding flashbacks and today things are actually going pretty good for a change and it just feels-WRONG. its such an unsettling feeling and to us seems like feeling bad is normal and safe. is there anyone else who can identify or are we just plain freakishly weird?
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I feel you on this one.....but I have come to believe that to a certain extent this is part of the human condition. We did not survive by hanging out on the savannah, lolling about with bellies fulll...evolved and survived by making a hasty exit into cover when the brontasaurus thundered onto the scene.....
...wait a moment....humanoids and dinosaurs did not exist contemporareously, did they? Only on The Flintstones?
You get my point. Don't make this about only you. Lots of people suffer (from various degrees) of anticipatory anxiety, it seems to me. Don't they?
But the trick has been, for me, to recognize when I am "waiting for the other shoe" to drop in an extreme way, and blocking out the many blessings in my life. I still have a fear of happiness and contentment but I am working on this one.... in my current coaching. I am prone to magical thinking, and it seems to me that great things have a hard time materializing if we're not at least a bit hopeful! It's like they don't have a place to land!
I sure do understand. Thanks for your post!
