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Originally Posted by karmamie
Another question from me I'm afraid that is triggering - does anyone else get physical flashbacks?
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Yes. I went to a fundraiser for a foster care society and while one of the former foster kids was speaking about his experience, I would feel the belt on my low back so vividly I started sweating and had trouble not moving around in the chair trying to get some relief from the pain. For days afterward, and even now occasionally (like now when I'm thinking about), I can feel the pain.
In reference to your original posting, I also felt some relief when I learned the term for what happened to me: covert sexual abuse. I know my mother would have vehemently denied there was anything sexual about what she was doing to me. It was about having to supervise me even in the bathroom or the shower because I was such a horrible person. Or having to bathe me because I was so dirty and gross, etc, etc. There was always an excuse for touching me and because she was my mother, I was supposed to let her touch me anywhere she wanted to, anytime she wanted to. I still have trouble now not screaming and hitting people's hands away when they go to pull lint off my shirt or accidentally touch my rear. Knowing what it was and that it has happened to other people was a relief.