Dark Heart...are there any bipolar support groups that you could join near where you live? I just feel how alone you are there and know that therapists can be pretty expensive. I know how much you want things to improve and for him to go back to the way that he was but you just sound so unhappy...Whether or not he ever comes around, you have your own value (with or without him) and you're special in your own right. Please don't disappear just because he treats you like you're invisisble. Is there any way you could go visit a friend for a few days just to get some physical space (out of the house) to figure out if staying in this situation is the right thing for you and your new baby?