What your T said reminded me of what my T has said to me when similar things have happened. That she never ever meant to cause me pain like that but that it was good that we got to work on something so big. My gut tells me that you'll make it through this, though I know it's so hard. I agree with the other that it's okay to feel a bit shaky in terms of your trust in T right now. I do hope your T helps to make it feel a little bit better during your next appointment. I know it's possible for that to happen. When I went to my sessions after being forgotten (a couple of times) I had almost convinced myself it might be a last session, and T still managed to magic everything back to okay again.