I guess I should have defined my idea of better. I want to have a family and kids, right now I probably couldn't unless I married a therapist. The problem is that I am too content in my own company, the therapist calls it Schioid. I can easily goes days without talking to people (outside of work). I try to force my self to be social and in a relationship, and the mental battle begins leading to depression, leading to a breakup and me alone and content again, but still wanting a family. I know that its going to take a lot of hard work and time, as tough and strong as I am, I sometimes feel like a lost little boy who needs a hug and to be rerassured everything will be ok.