I keep going back to this thread...
I get it, i should, i need to; to let go, move forward, progress beyond, to be more open, to heal, to live.
Yet it hurts, i cant and am too angry/afraid/ashamed to approach; too far behind too late too screwed up too bad = instead give me the punishment judgement and condemnation.
Dont know why this hits so hard and is just so much. Like what happens afterwards - is it really that safe/possible to be so open and alive?
......sorry, couldnt keep this in anymore