please DO NOT READ if triggered by talk of RA, demons etc.

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growing up, my father was a member of a cult. for reasons that don't matter, he decided almost the second i was born i was the devils daughter.

as such, him being a man of god, i had to be punished and prepared for a life-time of hell, so there was a LOT of ritual abuse.

now i know it's illogical for an adult but i'm still terrified of those ****ing demons! certain things still throw me into the most ridiculous state of fear. a power cut, a candle where it reflects into a mirror, mirrors after dark, even bloody camping.

so i put up with his rituals, abuse and torture for the first 11 years of my life. but i'm 45 and still scared of freaking demons coming to get me! wtf is wrong with me???

sorry, i just ..... nvm