See the thing is I have talked to her and she knows exactly how I feel. She has also said she sees I've grown a lot and have been able to control myself a lot more since I've been in therapy. Idk if she is scared or not, but if she really wants to earn my trust back (which she claimed she does so we can be friends) she's not showing that at all. I'm just confused cuz everyone in my life tells me to walk away (even my T says maybe its time) cuz she keeps doing this to me even though she knows exactly how I feel about it. We have talked about what I mean by disappearing. Like she disappears in the middle of conversations. I understand life is unpredictable (esp hers), but to disappear for days when we were in the middle of a conversation is different then us just not talking for a few days. Idk if that makes sense lol. I'm not relying on her. We only talk every once in a while, but then she goes and disappears. Idk I guess its really confusing.