Hello, Mogeii! Even though I personally have suffered from depression for a long time, looking around the Web I see the statistics are on your side. Even if it takes longer than you hope, and even if you experience depressive episodes in the future, it is "probable" (that's my impression) you will succeed in reaching a place where depression plays only a minor, controllable role in your life -- if not disappear completely.

Depression, as you know too well, messes with our perceptions. Do your best not to make decisions based on depression-skewed views. Do take the fears and experiences you have posted above to your caretakers. The doctors work for you.

Here's hoping the five months won't stretch into a year!