I feel terrible. almost a self-loathing type of terrible. im just pissed and annoyed at the things i do sometimes. last night i went to my sisters birthday party. i got hit on 3 times and i actually went outside and started talking to one guy. he seemed nice but i wasnt attracted to him. I think i led him to believe i was interested in him. i told him i didnt want a boyfriend but i didnt act like it. i was also a little tipsy but thats no excuse. my phone has been cut off all day because i gave him my number, and am now trying to avoid him. ive done the same thing once before when i was younger but i dont know why i do it. smh, im such a dumba** sometimes.