i'm sorry you went thru that, karmamie, but glad you have been able to overcome it by telling yourself you have the power, kudos!
unfortunately, i am not as strong as you but ty for post, it does give hope!
and no matter who laughs at what you have to do to feel safe ... keep it up, it all goes towards getting over it and KNOWING your mother was wrong and you can be safe! maybe i will get there one day.