Hi Mindinpieces. This is weird. I was just about to post a new thread asking pretty much the same thing. It's like you took the words right out of my mouth! The only difference is that my anxiety, or whatever it is, comes with a persistent aching kind of feeling in my chest, but it's not physical. Really hard to describe. Anyways, it got so bad today I went back to plotting ways to terminate my life again when I was trying to sleep. Then I just emotional snapped. I started bawling and called a suicide hotline, but then hung up cause I just couldn't talk to the person over the line in a comprehensible way. God it sucked.

Sorry, that's just been on my mind and I guess I got a little carried away with the keyboard. What I really wanted to say was:

1.) You're not alone.
2.) Even though I don't know you, I really do feel sorry for you. I wouldn't wish these feelings on anyone.
3.) I personally have not found a way to ease these thoughts when they come. As you said they kind of work in the background. But I have not had the opportunity to try many therapeutic techniques yet, (such as medication, electric shock therapy or hypnosis) so maybe there is something out there that will help, I just haven't found it yet.
4.) I wanted to let you know, to me you seem like a very considerate person. Just something I noticed through your postings. You seem... genuine... I guess is the word. I really wish there was more I could do. I really do. For the both of us. And although I can't, I don't want get you discouraged. I really think that there may be something that can help us. I just hope I'm not some fanatic desperately clinging to life when there really is nothing left. Eh... Well, I tried to keep it positive...

Anyways, I just wanted to say thanks for the thread. It actually made me feel better. Not a whole lot better, but still better. Hopefully I'll see you later a little more happy and less anxious. Good luck.