Hi, I believe in self help uncontrollably I obsess about it, but that's not my problem at this moment.
My problem is I live with signifigant amount of distress or stress, the test said distress, but anyways it is cronic and bothering me almost 24/7 for at least the past 3 years. I have had a lot of professional help but still can't get over my obsessive nature which causes my distress is which I believe.
I am constantly trying new tactics and new tools to try and fix myself, sometimes I try to just be and that doesn't work either. I have a hard time explaining what is going on, and it doesn't help me to get the right medication's if that is the problem.
It is just soo disabilitating and I am getting sick of it. I'll never commit harm to myself because to many people care about me and I can appreciate that. If it was my way and people didn't care about me I would be gone years ago but its the people and the passion that keep me going. I just want to get better and have all this hard work I put into my memtal health to be worth something. I just want some not all, of my life back before I was diagnosed with schizopbrenia. There just has to be a better way to live.
Every day I work on motivating myself to get better and I think I have good clear goals. I want to go to school and do one.course at a time, I want a part time job and make a extra 500 a month, i'd like to be fit and have the motivation to do the 15-28 minutes of exersize a day, my eating habits have gotton better so I'm proud of that. The last thing I want is a nice girlfriend to care in exchange for my care, but with all my distorted thinking, I can't even imagine that.
I don't know really what I am asking for other then new hope, and mabye some new stratigies, to get the stress and anxiety down to a copable level, then mabye my progress towards my goals will be more fluent and ill mabye be able to enjoy my life.
Sorry if this is long and drawn out, but I just needed to vent and see what the world and this site has to offer me, and.in the same, I'll try and.offer my services back.
Thank you : Jordon
