Hello, tennisgrlcc. Although you say that your T says it is okay for you to be emotionally attached to her, I think you should talk very openly and honestly with her about the extent and intensity of your "physical nurturing" desires and fantasies. It's a good thing to have a T that you can trust and makes you feel safe and accepted, but it is important to the success of your therapy for your T to maintain a degree of objectivity, as well. Too much of an emotional attachment to your T can actually interfere with your growth toward emotional maturity and acquiring the skills you need to develop your self-esteem, self-reliance, and independence.
Since you lost your mom at such a young age, it IS perfectly natural that you would have the feelings you are experiencing and be inclined to think of your T and even other mature women as substitute-mothers; so, do not be ashamed of or embarrassed about your feelings. Like I said, talk to your T about your feelings openly and honestly so she can know how to help you understand and cope with them.
Take good care of yourself, and don't hesitate to post about your feelings and concerns here to get the additional guidance and support you need.  lynn09
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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