Got my phone for the Sunday. Going not so good. Been in hospital twice before, but I am struggling because of the Social phobia. Feel a bit misunderstood to say the least. We are 12 in the ward and I have trouble sleeping. They give me sleeping pills that is not working. I am scared to sleep. I am scared to eat in the mess hall. My T is working me hard. A lot of stuff is bubbling up. They're talking about 2 months which I don't think I'll make. If I can just keep my phone so I can come here. This one woman wants to be my friend, but I'm scared to make connections. Had a couple of anxiety attacks. On new antipsychotics. Took away all my antidepressants. I just want to go home.