thanks, Shezbut. i have done the workforce program and have gotten very few replies to my resume. i am also doing the VESID program to help build up my self confidence. (i'm not having a lot of success there.) the counsellors want me to change careers. i will try sending out some resumes today. turns out, between changing anti-seizure meds and trying new jobs and temping and having medical problems, they deemed that i was trying too hard and suggested i take a break, get the med thing corrected and heal the body a bit before looking again. i have applied for SSDI and have submitted the required paperwork and had both physical and mental examinations. in the middle of all of this, i required emergency dental work. so, i've been trying a lot and trying to take care of myself physically to get and stay healthy. (i need regular exercise to keep weight off and to prevent becoming diabetic.) hopefully, all of this will pay off eventually. hopefully . . . because despite all this effort, i am very, very depressed.