Sounds like he has brought you down for so long that now the things he says to you you believe. You are a good person and you have taken care of yourself in a verbally abusive relationship I am sure you have the strength to take care of yourself if you are not in one. Sometimes verbal abuse can be worse than physical in my mind. I was in a verbally abusive relationship and I was made to think I didn't have a choice but then I realized I did. I decided I could do without a lot of things just not without my sanity so I had to leave which was not easy but I did it. If I can do it so can you. You have more strength than you know.