Thank you, everyone.

Idiot17 - I do not see a therapist, but I've been thinking a lot about it lately. I've had five therapists already and each one has not been good at all. I'm hoping to maybe soon find the right now.

dailyhealing - Thank you. And yeah, I stopped posting on here for a long time, but I just couldn't do it anymore. I hope I'll be able to be more open, now.

lancetrot - Thank you, I'll do my best. Thing is, this friend I had was the one person I could actually talk to. I'm not very much of a trusting person, so even me posting on here is hard. I do talk to some of my other friends but they don't know the whole situation I'm in. And I have a slight fear of medication, but maybe I'll try considering it.