bipolar 2 adults is, when you are acting poorly toward others, do you KNOW that you are? I have bipolar I, I'll only talk about myself. Do I realize yes and no. At times I purposefully say things for everyone to get away from me, because I'll hurt them more if not. If I'm depressed I can hear everyone laughing and "know" when I leave the room they'll be sad,I'll say something offensive. Then I don't feel I sucked all the fun out of the room. I realize it before I do it and I'm working on finding a better more less damaging way to cope.

Most times, like 80% of the time, I completely have no idea and have to rely on my husband to tell me that I'm to aggravated to deal properly with my son. The parenting / discipline usually gets handed over to the other parent when one of us are sick. Our son stays with friends/family when we both our sick.

Any thoughts? I realized my family was sick long before I was 16. I did not have ill feelings towards them. I was mad that they did not get help even after their child asked them for the whole family to get an evaluation. I NEVER wanted to be like my parents. I try very hard not to be like them. I've seen the effects of denial of your actions and how much it hurts others. I hope my child one day realized how much I've tried and makes less mistakes then I have with his children.