Hello tennisgrlcc. You sound very mature for a 15 year old! I think the idea of telling your therapist is a good one also. And I'm sure it will feel weird and maybe uncomfortable. But I think the best way is to just say it. When I have something hard or scary to tell someone I trust I will often start by saying something like "I feel really nervous (or whatever you are feeling) about telling you this, but I really need to". That kind of lets them know that I am taking a risk and am not feeling very confident at that moment. Not sure if that helps, but it kind of breaks the ice for me to have the courage to talk about hard things. Take care and I hope you keep posting.