I just had this really great week! I was involved in putting on a play with the kids at my school and had a great time. They are little kids, kindergarten through 4th grade, and it was fun watching them perform and be successful. I liked the adults putting on the play and enjoyed working with them. I even had a short appearance in the play just for fun. I went out after the final performance last night with friends and family to celebrate and had a really great time. I felt really connected and happy.

So you are probably wondering what the heck this has to do with emptiness... Well, I just have this feeling of emptiness and loneliness tonight. And not just today, it is there many days. Even when I'm around people I am connected with. It just feels like there is this part of me that will just always be wounded. It's better than it once was, much better, but it is still there. My life is actually pretty good. I have a good marriage, two kids who are doing pretty well, good friends, etc... I even like my job and most of the people I work with. Yet, this feeling still persists sometimes. Tonight is one of those times.

I know that there is no answer to this and that the feelings that come are just a part of my life. I also have learned that as I feel and share the bad feelings I do tend to move towards feeling better overall. But it gets old. People say nice things to me, spend time with me, and it feels good at that time. It feels good for a while, but it is never enough to fully take away that emptiness. I wish I could feel the care more that I am pretty sure people have towards me.

Thanks for listening.