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Apr 29, 2012, 09:30 PM
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Member Since: Aug 2009
Location: Fringes of the bell-shaped curve
Posts: 779
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Good point and advice, dailyhealing. Also, tennisgrlcc, whenever I needed to tell my T something that was just too difficult for me to verbalize, I would write it out beforehand and just hand it to my T at my appointment.
Honestly, there's nothing weird about the thoughts and feelings you are experiencing about your T - they are natural components of your particular situation and how your experiences are impacting you. Your T needs to be able to see things from your perspective - needs to see what you are seeing - and the only way she can see things from your point of view is by standing where you are standing, so to speak, so she can provide you with the support and guidance you need.
If you broke your leg, you wouldn't distract your doctor's attention from your leg by requesting treatment for your arm since this would do nothing to fix your leg. In your present situation, the issue is not whether your feelings and fantasies about your T are weird or not, but rather that you feel weird about having and telling your T about those feelings and fantasies about her.
Identify your real fear here - perhaps you're afraid that if you reveal this information to your T that she will judge you, think less of you, that you might lose her acceptance, and that your relationship with her will be negatively impacted. If this is your fear, then all the more reason for you to discuss it all openly and honestly with your T - your fantasies, your feelings about your fantasies, your feelings and fears about sharing that information with her, etc.
From what you have said about your T, she sounds like a wonderful, kind, caring, trustworthy, supportive, nonjudgmental person whose only objective is to help, not judge, you in any way she can. Where there is fear, there's an issue with trust. So, this is a trust issue - not only whether or not you can fully trust your T, but also whether or not your T can trust you to be honest with her so she can act in your best interest and for your welfare. I truly believe that you have more to gain than risk by talking about this with your T.
Please let us know how you decide to handle this if you feel comfortable doing so. It may take you some time to be able to talk or even write to your T about this - and that's okay. Take your time and don't push yourself to do this before you are ready. In the meantime, we'll all be here to help and support you any way we can.  lynn09
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(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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