Hi Shez

Your childhood was very similar to mine – agony!! Through gaining deep awareness of everything that happened in my childhood I had no love as a child. Rather like you I was bullied, physically and emotionally abused and neglected. I felt it was bad to be a boy and everyday I was told that message – that I was unwanted!! And I did the same as you – I turned the anger on myself instead of others! The outcome? I had MAJOR DEPRESSION as an adult due to being so angry at myself. Then last year I did a program that is now allowing healing and turning the anger back onto the abusers and letting go of baggage that is not mine. So now I am learning to love myself and not own what is not mine to begin with! The result is that I’m less and less angry at myself because it was not my fault what happened to me as a child!!