For about a month (maybe more) me and DH have had trouble caring for our home. We both have bipolar and currently sleeping a lot. We bought a ticket for our son to "visit" his grandparents because right now we are both sick. We've been working hard care for him until he leaves. We don't know how long he will be gone for but it'll be up to 4 months . Everyone, Including him, thinks he's going up for summer vacation.

He leaves in 2 days, and I feel like a horrible mom not being able to care for him right now. Logically I know that him staying with family 600 miles away is the best for him but I've been only with him for 4 months and sick most of that time. I was away the last three months of 2011. I'll miss his 10th birthday and feel robbed, I know this is the thing to do but hate this. I want to be a good mom why is that to hard to ask? Why can't I be okay or if not me my husband? Why is this once again ruining my family? My son's going to feel so abandoned because I feel like I'm walking in and out of his life! I know I'm possibly going inpatient the day after he leaves but I hate not being able to be there with / for him some times.