(((dailyhealing))) I don't pretend to know you well, however I think the clue to identifying that void is your statement, "I wish I could feel the care more that I am pretty sure peope have towards me."
When we have difficulty receiving, experiencing, and fully assimilating the care others express towards us, it's often because somewhere deep inside we still don't love ourselves enough to believe that we truly "deserve" (hate that word) to be cared about by others. Perhaps you feel good when people say nice things to you and spend time with you because it gives you the validation of your self-worth that you (we all) need - at least momentarily. But, perhaps somewhere deep within, you're just not convinced yet - self-doubts get in the way, maybe negative self-talk causes static, and you don't know how to give yourself permission to truly love yourself so that you can validate your own self-worth and not have to rely on getting small doses of that validation from others. Perhaps that emptiness is where a healthy and loving relationship with yourself belongs.
Just a thought. lynn09
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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