I don't mean to but in...but.....Please don't get down on yourself sounds like you are really trying to make your marriage work. But it takes two! Don't you for one minute let him make you think it is your fault! It is not! He needs to man up and get back to reality where he has a wife and baby that love him! Sorry if I sound harsh but I went through almost same thing when my 1st born was born only he spent all his time with the guys fishing and drinking! It just upsets me when I see it happening still with young couples. I know where you are at and I just want to say again.....IT'S NOT YOU! as your husband and mental illness would like you to believe!