I'm am really very angry at my boyfriends recents indiscretion. It had to do with lying to me about drug use. I have serious past issues with drug use and my ex-husband. My boyfriend say he was just experimenting, but he lied, snuck around behind my back, and basically lost my trust. We have been trying to work it out, but I find myself feeling very angry. I'm really upset that he put me in this position. He says it's easy to fix because all he has to do is not lie to me or do things like he did and that will be very easy for him.

Hearing that tho, I dunno, it really upset me. I feel so angry that it's just so easy for him to "fix" this. But I'm the one who has to try to open my heart to him again, and trust him. I'm the one who gets to feel anxious, unsure, hurt, ugh long list. I can't just keep directing my anger at him, I agreed to work on our relationship as well. I can't direct it at myself. I don't know where the anger is supposed to go.

As a child I wasn't allowed to be angry or express it, now I feel kind of stuck. I want the anger to go away, I'm sure that will take time. But what do you do with it in the mean time. I want a healthy way to deal with it, I don't want to end up resenting him and not being able to move past this. I guess I'm just really unsure how to process it. Any ideas ?