hi bjtds3
i can't really give any advice, i'm struggling myself atm, just wanted you to know i read this and get where you are. i understand about not wanting to commit to meetings until you are sober but have you contacted anyone from your AA locally. i did by e-mail coz, like you, i was worried about meeting someone i'd know from my professional days. i got a very reassuring e-mail back giving me a number i could call just to talk to someone, with details of other meetings in locations where i may feel more comfortable, and the offer of transport if needed. i don't know if this idea is any good to you? anyways, i just wanted you to know i get it, hope you post again.