bill just called and the Freeport, Texas job went inhouse. never a word about that possibility was said during the two interviews that he had. he felt both went really well. so, we're not going to be 90 miles apart......it may be three continents again.

bill's main worry is my health and not being here for me. he wants to know that he can get to me, asap, if i get really ill again. i, of course, wanted his "bode" to be near me.

he has always done extraordinary work in Muslim countries as he has spent years studying their culture and is really trusted by the company and the Muslims that work under him. i really, really, really don't want him to go back to that area. he isn't worried about the workers, he's worried about the people who are not mainstream Muslims.

i have a huge hole in my stomach right now. but, i'm more worried about him. he's been sending pics of rings and making plans for a "merged" long distance household. it has taken a long, long time to get me to consider even the ring "thing".....my trust issues loom bigger than most Oklahoma mountains.

he is really, really down. so am i. we've both been single for such a long, long time and getting to be this close, distance wise, has been holding us up.......health and job wise.

i guess we need a group hug.........xoxoxo pat